I always get miffed when things that I expected to be a certain way aren’t as spectacular or even as they may seem on the outside. I don’t know why it miffs me really.

It’s like those posts on instagram, “instagram vs reality” where people post a flawless picture using filters etc. then also show the real untouched, un-edited version where lumps and bumps and what not are on show.

Life is pretty much like this to me, but the way I see it is that everything and everyone is “instagram” and I’m merely just “reality” with lumps and bumps all on show! (figuratively speaking!). this could be compared to rose tinted glasses/beer goggle analogies I guess!

I know my life and everything and everyone in it is spectacular in it’s own way and I’m so grateful for what I do have just never seems to be as I expected. For example; my expectation of this “breakdown” was that I’d be over it and it would go away, yet I got over it and things were pretty good but now I’m regressing back to bad thought processes out of blood nowhere! definitely not what I expected!

Anywho, it’s all part and parcel of things I guess just gotta jump back on the positive waves and hope for the best.

Love always, Gee x