Some days I can be going about my business and all of a sudden it hits me that I miss my Mom!! When that feeling hits, it’s like a hammer to the head it hurts so damn much!

Today I was driving back from work when that feeling came. I suddenly had this urge of needing to speak with her, hug her & see her! Out of nowhere! Nothing particularly happened to make me think of her, it just overwhelmed me.

I hate when this happens because the grief takes over and all I can focus on is why my Mom isn’t here with me, that I need her and that what happened wasn’t fair. So yes, wrongly (more than likely) I try to keep her to the back of my head so that I can live my life like I know she’d want me too, because focusing on missing her overwhelms me to the point I feel trapped in such a dark place! And for the sake of my Son, I can’t be in that place!

I feel awful saying it but not remembering her, or thinking about her much is so much easier than remembering the great things we did, and the great Mom she was because that hurts too effin much! But yes, I miss her, I want nothing more than to have one more day with her, drinking coffee, gossiping, shopping and watching Theo love her to the stars and back!

I do like to believe that she is watching over me (probably cussing over some of my choices ha!) and I like to hope she is proud of me! So Mom, if you are watching over me… I LOVE YOU so so much & always will!!! You’re missed every single day and there is not a moment I don’t wish you were here!

Love always, Gee x